Time and distance can not erase a love and bond so deep <3

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

IT'S A GIRL! (gallstones & injections)

Since writing on here last I've had three more ultrasounds done of my little monkey, the first of those 3 determining that I am indeed having a little GIRL! I was quite shocked when the u/s tech told us, because I was just so sure that I was having a boy. But, God decided to bless us with a baby girl instead :). I couldn't be happier with the healthyness of our little one, every check up she has a strong heartbeat, and she's got some strong kicks on her too! We still have yet to come up with a for sure name for her, but there are a few we like and since I've still got about 13 weeks or so left, we still have time for that. As mentioned before, I am still on the LOVENOX injections, giving a 40 mg dose to myself every night. Recently I've begun to alternate injection sites between my upper thighs and my belly. And I'm getting quite tired of them LOL, but whatever it takes! After having some upper right quadrant pain lately, I was ordered an ultrasound on my gallbladder, only to discover that I have 2 very small (4 mm ) gallstones in there. Since i'm so far along in pregnancy, my doctor's really don't want to do surgery, and I've been put on a NO FATS/NO SPICES diet, which is no fun at all when all you want is mexican food! But once again, oh well, pregnancy is drawing closer to an end as I enter my last trimester, and then we can figure out something to do about that. Besides this diet! Anyways, I'm still thinking God every day that my baby girl is healthy as can be inside my tummy, and knowing it won't be too much longer before I'm having this HEALTHY baby and meeting her sweet little face. I really just can't wait! This first ULTRASOUND is showing that she's a "SHE"
Baby girl's face at 20 weeks
Her precious face at 24 weeks with her hands up to her mouth.
And her face yet again at 24 weeks yawning :)

Monday, July 23, 2012

So I've put off writing on here for awhile now. No reasons in particular, just been really busy for the past few months. Since I was on here last, life has changed A LOT. I found out I was pregnant again in April, and got married in July. Honestly, I'm SOOOO happy right now with life. I've been blessed greatly, a lot more than I deserve. As I said, I found out in April that I'm pregnant again!! Actually, I found out April second, so my husband (fiance at the time) just thought that I was April fooling him. But I wasn't, and after a trip to the ob-gyn, I found out I was about 5 weeks pregnant. At about 13 weeks I switched back to the doctor that I was going to with Aaden ( I started out going to a doctor who was closer, but realized I felt more comfortable going to someone who I was already used to, and who knew my history with Aaden well.) They done some blood work to see if I had a protein s deficiency and a couple other things (What happened to Aaden was never really certain, and they wanted to make sure that I wasn't at risk for a blood clot, since my protein s levels had been a tad low after I had him.) The protein s came back a little low and they wanted to put me on blood thinners JUST IN CASE to be on the safe side. So, low and behold I've been giving myself LOVENOX injections in my stomach for a month now. Which, by the way, are NO fun at all, but I'd rather be on the safe side of that. I got an ultrasound scan done at 16 weeks, just to check on baby. Everything looked GREAT!! Baby was moving all around during the whole thing, but the little stinker wouldn't uncross his/her legs to let us see the gender! Now I'm 20 weeks and 4 days pregnant today! I go tomorrow for another ultrasound to try to determine the gender. That means I've already made it halfway through (duh!) I'm a little nervous, after what happened with Aaden, but Jesus has helped me through this every day, step by step. And my faith is now greater than it has EVER been! My husband has been so supportive through this whole thing. He's such a blessing to me and I've never been more in love in my entire life. It's so nice to have him here to go through this whole thing with me. When I was pregnant with Aaden, his father didn't really give much through the whole thing. And he was most definitely not supportive. So having Caleb here through this one has been a blessing in itself. He's so in love with me AND our baby. It's so sweet to watch him rub my tummy and talk to the little baby already. I've been feeling baby's kicks and wiggles for a few weeks now, and I'm thankful for every single kick and wiggle that I feel (Yes, even those kicks to the bladder that send me running for the bathroom every time!!) Caleb has even got to feel the kicks a few times, but our stubborn little monkey likes to move around so much, it's hard to catch a kick from the outside! I honestly can't Thank God enough for all that he's done and is DOING for me and my family. He has blessed us so much, and he continues to do so, even when we deserve it the least. Jesus loves us so much! I would appreciate all the prayers that may be sent my way. I've got a lot of faith and I'm trusting in Jesus throughout this pregnancy, but who couldn't use more prayers?! Also, if anyone else has been on LOVENOX during pregnancy, I would love to have some advice or even just some comments on how it worked for you!! This is a picture of Me and my husband after his sister's wedding!
And this is our 4D ultrasound we got a 16 weeks, if you look closely you can make out the babies little face!
This is baby's profile!

Monday, March 19, 2012

Spring Brings New Life

Spring is not my favorite season (Fall is, to be exact,) because of all the storms and rain and hormonal weather (lol.) But, I can't deny the pure beauty of it. New life springs up everywhere outside. Tree's get their blooms, and turn green or colorful for the ones that have flowers. The grass is green, flowers pop up everywhere (and I definitely love my flowers!)And this Spring, I got to enjoy another type of new life; one of my best friends had her baby boy. He's so cute! And tiny! (Only weighing in at 5 lbs 12 oz.) And yeahhh, let me say, from the moment I held this precious baby boy, baby fever hit me like a ton of bricks. Walking out of the hospital, I looked at my other friends who came with me, and said, "I WANT ONE." These other friends of mine, all three of them (one of them is my sister,) have babies of their own. And I have a baby in Heaven, but the want to have another one, and soon, intensified. I get home and go right up to my boyfriend, "I WANT ONE. We have to get married. NOW!" Of course he doesn't have this baby fever so much...
But I am keeping to that promise from God, that I will have another...hopefully soon :)
Here's a few pics of this beautiful baby boy :)

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Life Goes On

I've always been horrible about writing letters. I can write them beautifully, but never send them. Why? i don't know...I forget and then it's too late lol. Luckily, with a blog, it's not really ever too late. So this is my apology to all my followers, for not keeping my blog updated well.
January 26th made 2 years since my original due date with Aaden. It was actually a very hard day for me. As I told my boyfriend (who, bless his heart, is amazing with me when I have my "emotional" days lol), people wouldn't think that 2 years later, a due date that was never even reached, could still mean so much. But, the only way I know how to explain it is that when you lose someone, especially someone who you never got to meet, you hold on to every little thing connected. Even a date, that was important at the time they were alive, but that was never reached.
But, as always, God's not going to give us anything that we cannot handle, and He always brings us through; and I got through that day. And my life goes on.
Been thinking lately about how much I want to have another child. Not, of course, to take Aadens place. But just because, I'm ready to be a mother again. I'm actually ready this time (after me and my love get married of course,) and when it happens it won't be such a surprise. I've grown SO much in the 2 1/2 years since I was pregnant with Aaden. Not only have I matured in the normal sense of the word, but I've matured so much in CHRIST. Which, is the most important. If you can have that closer walk with, growing every day in HIM, then you can grow in all other areas of your life.
And I've sure been blessed beyond what I've deserved. I mess up everyday, just like everyone else. Be it something little, or something not so little. I'm no where close to perfect, and I don't deserve any of what God has given me. He lived for us, died for us, and lives again for us still. He gives us love, even sometimes let's us obtain that mother's love. He has given me a place to live in, food to eat, water to drink, LOVE, and so much extra. Every day he fills my life with blessings. Even on the bad days, that I'm so swallowed up in my own SELF PITY (and I hate to think that I have that sometimes, but we all do, even when we don't realize that that's what it is.) Sometimes we all just need to sit down and talk to God. Instead of asking for anything, give Him a few minutes just to thank Him for ALL his blessings, and all that He's done for you. Imagine if all we had was what we thanked Him for?
Now, this is for all my angel mom's out there. Recently, my boyfriend and I discovered a very talented musician. His name is Jonathan David Helser, and he is a VERY anointed man of God. On his album, Walk Through The Walls, there is a song called "Amy's Song." It is about a little girl in Heaven. After hearing it, and realizing how much it touched that very spot in my heart that I have for Aaden, I looked it up to find out it's origin, why he wrote it. I found out that God woke him up in the middle of the night, and gave him this song 2 or 3 weeks after some good friends of him and his wife lost their baby girl, Amy, and had her stillborn. I was like WOW. Just listen to this song, insert your baby's name where it says "Amy." I believe it will touch you all as it has touched me.