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Sunday, March 3, 2013

Way Overdue...

I can't believe it's been so long since I've posted on here. I've been so busy as a new mom, that I've completely forgotten my blog. But now as my sweet 3 month old angel-on-Earth sleeps, I have finally found some time. As you can tell from my opening, I have indeed gave birth to my "Rainbow baby." After a very scary pregnancy (she was perfectly find the whole pregnancy, it was just me that was terrified,) and MANY stinkin' Lovenox shots, I was induced to have my girl on November 28th, 2012. I went in that night, and they started giving me cervidil around 9:30 to soften my cervix. I began to have mild contractions around midnight, and at 6 they started me on Pitocin. Got me a great ol' epidural around 8 in the morning, and at 12, my doctor came to break my water. As soon as my water was broke, my doctor inserted an internal ultrasound to monitor baby's heartbeat. Almost as soon as they got it in there, the heartbeat got REALLY irregular. So much so that they didnt even think it was possible for her heart to be beating like that. And then, it began to drop. Very fast. After trying (unsuccessfully due to the epidural) to get me on my hands and knees, the nurses panicked, the doctor ran to prep for surgery. My nurse was literally ripping cords out of the wall. I was FREAKING out. I really thought I was going to lose ANOTHER baby, after making it the whole pregnancy! As they're rushing me down the hall (just like in the movies!), all I could do was cry. And say repeatedly, "I'm scared!" They got me in the O.R., and as I was getting prepped for surgery I was trying so hard to pray. But it was as if I just couldn't get any words out. All I was getting out was "Help us dear Jesus! Please keep the baby and I safe." through my tears. A nurse came up to me and grabbed my hand, and prayed with me, when I couldn't find any words. She prayed that Jesus would protect me and the baby, and that he would guide the doctors hands." That was the last thing I remembered before I was out. When I woke up in recovery, my doctor was there and told me about my precious new baby. At 1:11 p.m. on November 29, my sweet Zadie Isabelle was born. A small 6 lbs 6 oz, and 19 in long. Just a lil dark peach fuz on her tiny head. My nurse told me that my Doctor got her out in 5 minutes. Literally. They said that he should've gotten the reward for fastest C-section ever. I'm so thankful for him, and all the nurses that helped deliver my sweet girl. As soon as I was allowed to leave recovery, they took me to the nursery and handed me my precious girl. I remember her just staring at me with her pretty brown (almost black, just like Mommy's) eyes. I was so proud. Today, my darling Zadie Belle is 3 months old and doing great. She goes to bed around 10:30 every night and sleeps until around 8. she eats GREAT! And is such a happy baby. I wish so much that her big brother Aaden was here, to be just that, a big brother! But I know that he's watching down on us, with so much love. One day we will all be together in Glory Land! To all my Angel baby Momma's out there: Don't lose hope! Always turn to Jesus. He loves you so much! Here's some pictures :)